It’s so easy to hide from the things that are on your mind. It’s so simple to ignore the things that burden us and weigh us down. Often times I will convince myself that I just procrastinate like everybody else, but I don’t think that’s true at all. Have you ever found yourself repelled by the things you need to do? We will do anything to just avoid our responsibilities because we just simply don’t want to take responsibility. The truth is, most days I’ll sit down to write and I will do anything to ignore my current objective. I think this is mostly because I’m afraid to move into the future. If I don’t move forward with things even as simple as writing a blog entry then where do I end up? If I don’t move forward, I will stay in the same perpetual state, deterring my growth. The hardest thing to overcome for me is the person I once was. I was afraid to leave that constant state of comfort, that small everlasting sphere of influence that I latched to for support. So how do you transform into a more fluid dynamic individual when you’re so used to watching the world pass in front of you? I think to attempt this I need to change my perspective for good. Many people take the role of spectators and watch the days unfold into weeks, months and years. Perhaps the answer is to just run with the world, let yourself experience change and allow yourself to evolve with your environment. Experience life and react to it, provoke your own change.
Writing helps me to provoke change internally. What I’ve learned is that there are two important steps to change your perspective. The first is to subject yourself to new experiences. Go and do something you’ve never done, experience awkwardness, embarrassment, bliss; experience something new and unfamiliar. Subject yourself to those experiences and learn more about yourself. The next step is to give yourself time to reflect on yourself and your life internally. Write down your thoughts, communicate with yourself and learn to understand your thoughts and the direction you want to lead. Sometimes I find myself avoiding writing because there are so many thoughts and ideas in my head that I find myself repelled by the overload. I find myself overwhelmed by my own never-ending thoughts and ideas. The only way to solve this is to pick one thought and flow with it, let the other thoughts drift for a while
Often times I have so much to write about that I don’t know where to start. These blog entries are usually just random thoughts and are haphazardly written. Most of these entries are written and then deleted because they lack a purpose besides my own self-analysis. Although my writing is unorganized, it’s purpose is to be honest to myself. When I write, I think honestly and try to reveal things to myself I would otherwise shield from peering eyes. When I began writing journals I was surprised by how much I subconsciously lied to myself. We spend our lives fabricating feelings and stories for others to hear, to shield our flaws and to make ourselves look ideal. We get so comfortable with lying to others that we begin to lie to ourselves and we start to stray from the person we really are. We become the projection of how we want others to perceive us. Find truth in yourself and stick closely to that. Be honest to yourself and to others and move forward towards personal growth.
Open your mind, explore the world and subject yourself to the universe.