The Human Connection

I believe pursuing the human connection is one of the most important goals in the universe. The connection between all human beings and the universe in which we perceive is something a majority of the world has forgotten about. It’s the most primal and instinctual link that we have with all living things and our environment so how could we have strayed so far from such a profound attraction? Somewhere during the evolution of humanity we became obsessed with novelty and we became enthralled with possession. We placed high value in all material things and claimed them as our own; but that wasn’t enough to fill our insatiable desire for wealth. So we turned against each other and suppressed other human beings for our own gain.

Welcome to the present day, humanity is at the peak of technological advancement. Cutting edge technologies improve every day and we approach the practical birth of quantum computing. Hell, we even created a space probe, Voyager 1, that is traveling through Interstellar Space (the physical space within a galaxy not occupied by stars or their planetary systems). Humans are connected over unbelievably vast distances and can communicate almost instantaneously.


Yet, it seems we have become so disconnected from each other on a human level. We’ve placed a currency on everything and we exchange these currencies without really experiencing or interacting with each other. We’ve become obsessed with owning things and becoming the best. We’ve become so intrigued by how many likes we have accumulated on our current selfie or how many favorites our clever tweet has received. We destroy our Earth and we decimate a multitude of species on our planet. However, I am also responsible of this because I am a result of the culture in which we live. I have made these same mistakes and I am devoted to changing that fault. We forgot that we evolved on this Earth together. Our feet have touched the same soil and we’ve experienced the same sun; the same warmth.

The truth is, we’ve lost our way. Many people have forgotten that we are capable of taking action. That we are capable of connecting with each other again. We are capable of connecting with the universe in which we were born. We need to stop being so selfish and we need to start caring about others and the places in which we live. We must understand that we are an extraordinary species, given the power to process complex emotion and to think logically. We have the power to change the world in a positive way, to connect the lives of people across the globe and maybe one day connect with others across the universe. Remember that there is a deeper purpose than the materials in which we place our priorities. We have a deeper purpose than we could have ever imagined. The beauty of life is discovering that purpose. If you take anything from this blog it should be to go out and experience the world, experience humanity, experience the universe and provoke positive change. Change the world so that humanity can move forward in a positive way so that we can grow intertwined with the universe.

Open your mind, explore the world and subject yourself to the universe.

Moving Forward

Hey everybody, its been quite a while since I’ve posted here but things are starting to move along so I figured it was time to complete some journals. There are lots of things I’d like to talk about but let’s start with the status of my trip.

As of lately I’ve been pushing my plans forward and making a strong effort to solidify my backpacking trip through South America. My itinerary isn’t complete however my trip will start in the city of La Paz, Bolivia. La Paz is a beautiful populated city surrounded by the mountains of the Altiplano. La Paz sits at an altitude of roughly 12,000ft above sea level. I decided on La Paz because it’s a beautiful city surrounded by culture and incredible geographic features. It’s also one of the cheapest countries to travel among South America for backpackers on a tight budget.


However, unfortunately Bolivia is one of few South American countries that require U.S. citizens to apply and pay for a tourist visa and I’m going through that process now. The requirements for a Bolivian tourist visa as a U.S. citizen is as follows:

  • Completed tourist visa application (Downloadable Here)
  • Recent passport photo (to be included with application)
  • Valid Passport with an expiration date of not less than 6 months, after the arrival date in Bolivia
  • Proof of Stay (Hotel reservation or letter of invitation)
  • Copy of Round trip ticket or trip itinerary
  • Proof of Economic solvency (credit card or cash or a current bank statement).
  • Photocopy of International Certificate of Vaccination against yellow fever (Upwards of $150)
  • $160 money order payable to the “Consulate General of Bolivia”
  • Pre-paid envelope with address for return of documents

All of this information should be sent to the nearest Bolivian embassy

(Visa is valid for 5 years and permits the bearer to enter Bolivia up to 3 times and a stay of no longer than 90 days)

 Planning this trip has been a main priority of mine recently and I’ve changed my plan a bit. Originally I was planning to mainly stay with hosts to lower costs but the spontaneity of backpacking caught my interest. I’ve decided most of my trip will be traveling on my own wherever my adventure takes me and staying at hostels along the way. I will also take breaks with hosts when living on the road becomes tiresome or too expensive. I am only bringing what I can carry comfortably on my back. At a future date I will post all of the stuff I will pack and my itinerary.

Upon arrival in Bolivia there are a few main attractions I would really like to see including:

Salar de Uyuni – the world’s largest salt flat at roughly 4000 square miles


Lake Titicaca – one of the world’s highest lake at roughly 12,500ft above sea level


During this trip I will be documenting all of my adventures. I will have a GoPro, small computer and journals along with me to aid me in my documentation and I will constantly be updating this blog. My goal is to experience and document the various cultures and my extensive experiences in South America. As of now I am set to leave the second week of January 2015. My return date will be roughly two months however that could change depending on how long or how little I am able to stretch my budget. Stay tuned for more information about my trip!

 Open your mind, explore the world and subject yourself to the universe.

Positivity & Working Hard

I haven’t written an entry here in almost a full month and I’m feeling pretty guilty about it. In my defense, I’ve been incredibly busy with work and enjoying the company of others in my small amount of free time. Life has taken a lot of changes in the short amount of time since my last post. I’ve since then started a new job at a restaurant/catering venue. Although I have only been working for a little less than a month, this experience has allowed me to learn so much about myself and others. At first, I was really stressed about having to work long hours and spend most of time at work but after a few shifts that completely changed. In fact I wake up most days and look forward to going to work and seeing all my coworkers. It’s a totally new atmosphere that I couldn’t have expected to be a part of. After a 15+ hour day I don’t feel exhausted, I actually feel accomplished and proud of myself.

Recently, I met a new coworker and we had a ton of work cutout for us for the night. We had started to get agitated with another worker when he was nowhere to be found while we set up for a huge wedding ceremony. Suddenly he turns to me and says, “I get angry with people easily and it’s easy to take your anger out on them. Sometimes when I see myself getting irritated I just have to remember that good things come to good people. I try to be a good person and I work hard everyday. I have to be grateful that I have the opportunity to work hard. Sure, it sucks that we have so much work to do but if you can prove to yourself that you can take on somebody elses responsibilities then you’ve just become a stronger person.” What I found was, he was right. It’s easy to forget that were more capable than we think and that working hard is something to be proud of. He began to explain that he believed strongly in the influence of positivity. He believes that if you respond positively to your environment and to others then you will be positively influenced somewhere down the line. I think that this is an idea that I should begin to use in my life.

One of the most important things I’ve learned is that although people may exhibit bad qualities it doesn’t mean that they are inherently bad. It’s impossibly hard to put yourself into someone else’s shoes and understand them. Sometimes you have to stop and admit to yourself that people are different, they have different experiences, different emotions and different ideas about the way their lives should be lived. That’s a hard concept to grasp since our own moral compass seems to be repelled by differences in opinion. Just take a second and tell yourself, This person is unique and they have reason to be the way they are. I can’t have personal conflict with their life choices because I can’t fully grasp their reality.

 Open your mind, explore the world and subject yourself to the universe.

What closed eyes can’t see won’t hurt us.

It’s so easy to hide from the things that are on your mind. It’s so simple to ignore the things that burden us and weigh us down. Often times I will convince myself that I just procrastinate like everybody else, but I don’t think that’s true at all. Have you ever found yourself repelled by the things you need to do? We will do anything to just avoid our responsibilities because we just simply don’t want to take responsibility. The truth is, most days I’ll sit down to write and I will do anything to ignore my current objective. I think this is mostly because I’m afraid to move into the future. If I don’t move forward with things even as simple as writing a blog entry then where do I end up? If I don’t move forward, I will stay in the same perpetual state, deterring my growth. The hardest thing to overcome for me is the person I once was. I was afraid to leave that constant state of comfort, that small everlasting sphere of influence that I latched to for support. So how do you transform into a more fluid dynamic individual when you’re so used to watching the world pass in front of you? I think to attempt this I need to change my perspective for good. Many people take the role of spectators and watch the days unfold into weeks, months and years. Perhaps the answer is to just run with the world, let yourself experience change and allow yourself to evolve with your environment. Experience life and react to it, provoke your own change.

Writing helps me to provoke change internally. What I’ve learned is that there are two important steps to change your perspective. The first is to subject yourself to new experiences. Go and do something you’ve never done, experience awkwardness, embarrassment, bliss; experience something new and unfamiliar. Subject yourself to those experiences and learn more about yourself. The next step is to give yourself time to reflect on yourself and your life internally. Write down your thoughts, communicate with yourself and learn to understand your thoughts and the direction you want to lead. Sometimes I find myself avoiding writing because there are so many thoughts and ideas in my head that I find myself repelled by the overload. I find myself overwhelmed by my own never-ending thoughts and ideas. The only way to solve this is to pick one thought and flow with it, let the other thoughts drift for a while

Often times I have so much to write about that I don’t know where to start. These blog entries are usually just random thoughts and are haphazardly written. Most of these entries are written and then deleted because they lack a purpose besides my own self-analysis. Although my writing is unorganized, it’s purpose is to be honest to myself. When I write, I think honestly and try to reveal things to myself I would otherwise shield from peering eyes. When I began writing journals I was surprised by how much I subconsciously lied to myself. We spend our lives fabricating feelings and stories for others to hear, to shield our flaws and to make ourselves look ideal. We get so comfortable with lying to others that we begin to lie to ourselves and we start to stray from the person we really are. We become the projection of how we want others to perceive us. Find truth in yourself and stick closely to that. Be honest to yourself and to others and move forward towards personal growth.

Open your mind, explore the world and subject yourself to the universe.



It’s difficult to be so excited for something that is so far away at the moment. Shit, 7 months is basically an eternity ya know?

Let’s take a second and rewind before I begin. <<<

About a month ago, I was talking to a ‘friend’ whom made me realize the reason I’m not particularly excited about my future is because maybe I’m chasing the WRONG future. I took this thought with me and carried it around, letting it become more and more cumbersome until there came a point where my brain just said, “Well, fuck it man. Maybe this thought has some real substance to it.” Of course, this could have been a symptom of psychosis but being crazy is all the rage now anyway. I came to the realization that I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and I had no real purpose. At first that was a really powerful thing to admit to myself; I have no purpose. This thought is probably the scariest thing I’ve encountered in my lifetime. Although the idea of living without a purpose provoked many emotions. At first I was fearful and sad of what life would be like if I never found a purpose but then I felt ambition; ambition to go find MY purpose in life.   What I did understand was that continuing my life the way it was would only lead me further from self fulfillment. I became more open to the idea that maybe I was chasing a future that I grew up believing I wanted. As a child, teachers, parents and family all tell you to get good grades, go to college, get a job, have a family and eventually die happily. What if those steps don’t result in happiness for everyone? We’re all incredibly different people so why are we all told to do the same thing?

Growing up I always earned high grades and never had a real problem with learning. My parents and family would praise me for my grades but I never really felt good about them. I felt good about my grades because they made my parents happy not because they made me happy. My mom still hounds me to call about Dean’s list certifications but to me it’s just another piece of paper honoring my ability to memorize information instead of actually learning. (Congrats!)

After analyzing these thoughts that I so naively overlooked during my past, I accepted something; I accepted that I have no fucking clue what I want to do for a living. I also have no fucking clue what will keep me happy until the end of my days. I’ve also accepted that maybe being clueless for once in my life isn’t so bad after-all.. Many of the most influential people this world has seen have had a point where they just gave up briefly on following the course of life they chose.  So why can’t I? Sure, maybe I’ll get some backlash from others but at the end of the day I make my own decisions right?

Fast forward to the present now. >>>

Now that this idea to put my life on hold and travel for a bit is deeply ingrained into my brain, I can start preparing myself. By preparing myself I don’t mean just evaluating my finances and stockpiling bug spray. What I really mean is preparing myself mentally. In order to do something so far outside my comfort zone, I’m going to need to become more of an independent free-floating adult. My whole life I have been an uptight, super organized, responsible person and that causes too much burden. It caused me to be afraid of things that were not in order and outside of my comfort zone. Everything I’ve ever attempted I’ve sized up and done internal calculations to see if I was prepared for the task, but this adventure would be much different. This adventure would be something that I couldn’t possibly prepare for in conventional ways. In fact, I never even considered traveling because It is so far away from the person I was (apparently a huge pussy). I’m incredibly afraid of this new adventure so I decided that I need to become a more open-minded person to be properly prepared.

To prepare for this I’ve forced myself to be more accepting of others. I’ve taught myself to be more “whatever” about things. I immediately cut my stress in half just by saying, “Whatever, stop stressing”. Things that need to get done, WILL get done. Things will work out whether you’re stressed about it or not so why not just… not be stressed. It really is that easy to change your mindset. Utilize your own thoughts to change the way you will continue to think, it’s one of those paradoxical mysteries we will never understand. Over the past month I’ve realized that people are incredibly similar even though we all may seem so different on the outside. We all have fears, insecurities and lies hidden deep beneath the surface.  I’ve done my best to acknowledge that there are so many of us lost in the world and that we’re not all that bad. I began to try to put myself into unfamiliar situations, to stop stressing and to just slow the hell down. We all have shit to do and we’re all rushing around like we’re gonna die. Bro, you’re going to be fine, pump the brakes and just breathe homie. With each day, I felt as if I was pulling myself out of the dark and into the sunlight.

So here I am today, still fighting to become the person that I WANT to become. I will continue to strive towards a life filled with purpose and find something that means something to me. I will strive towards something that’s worth more than a paycheck, more than the brief euphoria and the trophies on our shelves. My next adventure will be a solo backpacking trip to South America beginning in January 2015. I hope this trip will help me to experience a life other than the futile materialistic life I am so used to living here. I hope to learn more about other people and experience other people’s lives and cultures. Maybe this experience will help me to learn more about myself and to live a more purposeful life. Until then I will keep on preparing myself in any way that I can and posting my thoughts here.

Open your mind, explore the world and subject yourself to the universe.



The Beginning

This first post is to kick off the beginning of this blog. I guess for now this is just a test run to see what my thoughts look like roaming the internet. I already write things daily in my journal but this is an attempt to move my thoughts to a more public audience. I’ve found that many people share similar concepts and ideas about life with me and maybe this blog will help others to get a different perspective on life or even to find someone to relate to. Basically, this blog is going to be a mix of all types of thoughts, concepts and lessons I learn each day. Maybe my thoughts won’t seem all that interesting to anybody, but if atleast one person reads these one day and can relate to me then I will feel accomplished. This is just the beginning..

Open your mind, explore the world and subject yourself to the universe.


Everybody has some perception of the type of person they want to be, the type of life they want to live. Lately I’ve felt like I’m happiest when I’m living simply and organically. We tend to complicate everything in our lives because we’re afraid of failing and we’ve been taught to reject imperfection. Maybe if we were taught to embrace all aspects of life we wouldn’t fall so hard when things don’t turn out as expected. We live in a culture with high expectations, extreme desires and intense pressures. We’re all so tense and insecure of ourselves without reason. What is so wrong with failing? What is so wrong with imperfection? Without these things we could never know what it feels like to succeed. I’m trying to teach myself to live simply, to just live and love life. I’m learning to fall in love with the way pain feels, the way jealousy makes your blood boil, the way hurt takes your appetite away. Fall in love with imperfection, embrace all the uncomfortable situations in life. I admire all the imperfect people that keep their heads held high. I admire all the flawed people that still have the strength to wake up and smile. I admire all the scared people that still have the courage to ask for help. These are the beautiful people, the ones that haven’t given up and are not afraid to think differently. I can only hope that one day I’ll be able to be a happy individual and create my own path in this world. However, life’s journey starts in the mind. In order to live and love life we must learn to love ourselves and to accept others for all of the flaws and imperfections we keep locked away. Live simply, fall in love with imperfection, fall in love with yourself. Then, and only then, can we begin to grow and live happily with others.

 Open your mind, explore the world and subject yourself to the universe.